"i keep telling myself just one more winning week"
"bet the mortgage money. hit the under by a point."
"my wife thinks i'm saving. i'm not saving."
"downloaded fanduel again. lasted 9 days this time."
"can't watch a game anymore without having something on it. just can't."
"told my buddy i quit. still betting every day."
"put $400 on a parlay to get even. lost. now i'm down $1,100."
"woke up at 3am and put $200 on korean baseball. why do i do this"
"my kid asked why i'm always on my phone during the game"
"i've deleted the apps 6 times since september"
"called in sick to work today. spent 4 hours watching lines move."
"told her it was a billing error. it wasn't."
"the fanduel ad came on during the game and my wife looked at me. i looked away."
"i have $14 in my account and i'm still looking at the odds"
"just one clean week. that's all i want. i keep saying that."
"lost $800 last night. told myself $50 max."
"been doing this for 3 years. nobody knows."
"i don't even enjoy watching games anymore. it's just anxiety"
"i borrowed money from my brother. said it was for rent."
"i bet on sports i don't even care about just to have something going"
"my girlfriend found the withdrawal history. i lied about all of it."
"i'm 26 and i have more credit card debt than my parents"
"i watch the game on mute so i can focus on the live lines"
"every sunday i tell myself this is the last one"
"missed my daughter's recital because i was trying to hedge a parlay"
"i have 4 apps on my phone. deleted them off the home screen but they're still there."
"the parlay that was going to fix everything. lost in the last 3 minutes."
"i make good money. i have nothing to show for it."
"texted the gambling line once. then closed it. never called."
"i don't know how to just watch anymore"
"put it all on the chiefs to cover. they won by 5. needed 6."
"i'm embarrassed to look at my own bank account"
"i keep a separate account she doesn't know about"
"told my therapist about everything except the gambling"
"i refresh the app first thing every morning before i even get out of bed"
"i took out a cash advance to cover last month's losses"
"every win makes it worse because i think i've figured it out"
"been three days clean. giants are on tonight. i'm scared."
"i've got a system. the system doesn't work. i know the system doesn't work."
"i've lost count of how much i've lost total. i don't want to know."
"i used to love sundays. now i just feel sick all day."
"i told myself if i hit this parlay i would stop for good"
"i can't sleep when i have something riding. i can't sleep when i don't."
"my whole family watches together on sundays. i'm not really there."
"bought a cheap phone just for gambling apps so she wouldn't see the screen time"
"i've had 4 different sportsbook accounts so i could get the welcome bonuses again"
"i lied in couples therapy last tuesday about the money stuff"
"i'm the guy who knows all the stats and still loses every week"
"i locked myself out of my account. made a new one 45 minutes later."
"got the check from my grandma. it's gone. i'm sorry."
"i'm not broke. i just have nothing saved. big difference i tell myself."
"i bet on the other team sometimes just so i don't feel so bad if my team loses"
"the fanduel ad came on during the game and my wife looked at me. i looked away."
"i could probably stop if there wasn't a game on. there's always a game on."
"paid minimum on the credit card again. put the rest on the chiefs."
"i used to know when enough was enough. i don't anymore."
"sat in my car in the driveway for 45 minutes after the game ended"
"if i hadn't taken that last bet i'd be even for the month. i took the bet."
"my kid's birthday is next week. i'm trying not to think about what i have left."
"i've been 'taking a break' for about 18 months now. still taking it."
"i missed rent in february. told her the landlord was being flexible."
"it's not a problem it's just a hobby that's gotten out of hand i think"
"i've googled 'do i have a gambling problem' probably 30 times"
"hit a $1,400 parlay in october. lost it back plus more by november."
"i bet small so i can tell myself i'm being responsible. it adds up."
"i told my dad i needed help with car repairs. spent it on the nfl."
"the only time i feel calm is right after i place a bet. then it goes away immediately."
"i hate myself a little bit every monday"
"been at this since sports betting got legal here. 4 years."
"i used to be really good with money. like, really good."
"my coworkers talk about the games and i just nod. they don't know."
"i've started lying to myself and i'm aware i'm doing it"
"she said she'd leave if it happened again. it happened again."
"i have a spreadsheet where i track my bets. i stopped updating it in november."
"put $600 on a game i didn't even watch. just checked the final."
"told the kids we're not doing a big vacation this year. it's not covid."
"the line moved two minutes before kickoff and i panicked and doubled down"
"i went to one GA meeting. sat in my car outside. drove home."
"i have notifications off but i open the app anyway. constantly."
"every time i lose i think the next one is the one that gets it back"
"i've started dreaming about spreads"
"i used to drink to deal with losing. now it's both."
"when i win i don't feel relief. i feel like i need to bet it again."
"i placed a bet on a tuesday night slovenian basketball game. that was a new low."
"i set a limit. hit the limit. set a new limit."
"i haven't told anyone in my life. not one person."
"my sister keeps asking why i seem stressed. i say it's work."
"i pulled money from my 401k. processing fee and everything. still lost."
"the debt isn't even the worst part. the lying is the worst part."
"sundays used to be my favorite day of the week"
"i'm not who i was two years ago and i know exactly why"
"i have $11 in my checking account. i have four betting apps."
"if i could just get back to even i swear i would stop"
"my hands actually shake when a big game starts"
"it started as like $20 a week. you know how this ends."
"i used to coach my son's little league. quit because i was always distracted."
"i need to stop. i know i need to stop. i keep not stopping."
"i've been the one guy in the friend group who 'always has something going'"
"i'm writing this at 1:47am after losing $340 on a live bet in the fourth quarter"
"i just want to watch the game. i just want to watch the game."
"march madness used to be fun. now it's just four days of panic."
"i promised my wife i'd stop after the super bowl. it's april."
"i have a venmo dedicated to betting. it's labeled 'utilities.'"
"my therapist asked me to journal. i write about point spreads."
"i was up $2,000. i didn't stop. i never stop."
"i bet my kid's birthday money on a thursday night game."
"my best friend is a bookie now. i can't even look at him."
"i've been on three different self-exclusion lists. found workarounds for all of them."
"i told my doctor i drink too much. that's not even the real problem."
"i had $4,000 saved for a vacation with her. it's gone in 11 days."
"every commercial break i check the live odds. every single one."
"my credit score dropped 200 points in a year. i know exactly why."
"i've started betting on games i'm watching with my kids."
"i told myself i'd only bet on games i know. now i'm betting turkish soccer."
"my boss asked why i look exhausted. it's because i was up until 3am hedging."
"i made a fake email to sign up for another sportsbook after i banned myself."
"there's a deposit pending right now that i can't afford. i know that."
"my mom asked if i needed money. i said no. i did."
"i watch game highlights to see if i would have won. i never would have won."
"my anxiety is so bad on sundays now that i can't eat."
"i sold my playoff tickets to fund a parlay. it lost."
"i've been paying minimums on 4 credit cards. three of them are maxed from betting."
"i used to keep score by how much i was up. now i keep score by how much i owe."
"she found the cash advance receipts. i said they were for a surprise for her."
"i haven't bought myself anything in 6 months. all of it goes to this."
"the app sends me push notifications about games and i get this wave of anxiety."
"i drove past the casino on the way home. sat in the parking lot for 20 minutes."
"i know every team's ATS record this season. i don't know my checking balance."
"i've lied to myself so many times that i don't know what the truth is anymore."
"i lost my fantasy league buy-in and then tried to win it back on real games."
"my hands get clammy during the national anthem now."
"i skipped my kid's soccer game because i was watching a bet."
"every monday i check my balance and feel physically sick."
"i took a personal loan and told the bank it was for home improvement."
"i can't go to a sports bar anymore without placing something."
"i used my emergency fund. there is no emergency fund anymore."
"i've unfollowed every sports account. i still check the lines manually."
"my girlfriend thinks i'm good with money. i'm $8,000 in the hole."
"i ate ramen for a week to have money for the nfl slate."
"i bet on the draft. the draft. what am i doing."
"i wake up at 5am to catch european soccer lines. i don't even like soccer."
"my wedding ring is in a pawn shop. she doesn't know."
"the worst part isn't losing. it's the hour before the game when you know you shouldn't."
"i have more sportsbook accounts than savings accounts."
"my new year's resolution was to stop. it lasted until the rose bowl."
"i turned down overtime at work because i was too anxious about a bet."
"i calculated it once. i've lost more than my car is worth."
"my roommate caught me betting at 4am. i told him i was checking fantasy."
"i don't even celebrate when i win anymore. i just bet it again."
"i keep telling myself just one more winning week"
"bet the mortgage money. hit the under by a point."
"my wife thinks i'm saving. i'm not saving."
"downloaded fanduel again. lasted 9 days this time."
"can't watch a game anymore without having something on it. just can't."
"told my buddy i quit. still betting every day."
"put $400 on a parlay to get even. lost. now i'm down $1,100."
"woke up at 3am and put $200 on korean baseball. why do i do this"
"my kid asked why i'm always on my phone during the game"
"i've deleted the apps 6 times since september"
"called in sick to work today. spent 4 hours watching lines move."
"told her it was a billing error. it wasn't."
"the fanduel ad came on during the game and my wife looked at me. i looked away."
"i have $14 in my account and i'm still looking at the odds"
"just one clean week. that's all i want. i keep saying that."
"lost $800 last night. told myself $50 max."
"been doing this for 3 years. nobody knows."
"i don't even enjoy watching games anymore. it's just anxiety"
"i borrowed money from my brother. said it was for rent."
"i bet on sports i don't even care about just to have something going"
"my girlfriend found the withdrawal history. i lied about all of it."
"i'm 26 and i have more credit card debt than my parents"
"i watch the game on mute so i can focus on the live lines"
"every sunday i tell myself this is the last one"
"missed my daughter's recital because i was trying to hedge a parlay"
"i have 4 apps on my phone. deleted them off the home screen but they're still there."
"the parlay that was going to fix everything. lost in the last 3 minutes."
"i make good money. i have nothing to show for it."
"texted the gambling line once. then closed it. never called."
"i don't know how to just watch anymore"
"put it all on the chiefs to cover. they won by 5. needed 6."
"i'm embarrassed to look at my own bank account"
"i keep a separate account she doesn't know about"
"told my therapist about everything except the gambling"
"i refresh the app first thing every morning before i even get out of bed"
"i took out a cash advance to cover last month's losses"
"every win makes it worse because i think i've figured it out"
"been three days clean. giants are on tonight. i'm scared."
"i've got a system. the system doesn't work. i know the system doesn't work."
"i've lost count of how much i've lost total. i don't want to know."
"i used to love sundays. now i just feel sick all day."
"i told myself if i hit this parlay i would stop for good"
"i can't sleep when i have something riding. i can't sleep when i don't."
"my whole family watches together on sundays. i'm not really there."
"bought a cheap phone just for gambling apps so she wouldn't see the screen time"
"i've had 4 different sportsbook accounts so i could get the welcome bonuses again"
"i lied in couples therapy last tuesday about the money stuff"
"i'm the guy who knows all the stats and still loses every week"
"i locked myself out of my account. made a new one 45 minutes later."
"got the check from my grandma. it's gone. i'm sorry."
"i'm not broke. i just have nothing saved. big difference i tell myself."
"i bet on the other team sometimes just so i don't feel so bad if my team loses"
"the fanduel ad came on during the game and my wife looked at me. i looked away."
"i could probably stop if there wasn't a game on. there's always a game on."
"paid minimum on the credit card again. put the rest on the chiefs."
"i used to know when enough was enough. i don't anymore."
"sat in my car in the driveway for 45 minutes after the game ended"
"if i hadn't taken that last bet i'd be even for the month. i took the bet."
"my kid's birthday is next week. i'm trying not to think about what i have left."
"i've been 'taking a break' for about 18 months now. still taking it."
"i missed rent in february. told her the landlord was being flexible."
"it's not a problem it's just a hobby that's gotten out of hand i think"
"i've googled 'do i have a gambling problem' probably 30 times"
"hit a $1,400 parlay in october. lost it back plus more by november."
"i bet small so i can tell myself i'm being responsible. it adds up."
"i told my dad i needed help with car repairs. spent it on the nfl."
"the only time i feel calm is right after i place a bet. then it goes away immediately."
"i hate myself a little bit every monday"
"been at this since sports betting got legal here. 4 years."
"i used to be really good with money. like, really good."
"my coworkers talk about the games and i just nod. they don't know."
"i've started lying to myself and i'm aware i'm doing it"
"she said she'd leave if it happened again. it happened again."
"i have a spreadsheet where i track my bets. i stopped updating it in november."
"put $600 on a game i didn't even watch. just checked the final."
"told the kids we're not doing a big vacation this year. it's not covid."
"the line moved two minutes before kickoff and i panicked and doubled down"
"i went to one GA meeting. sat in my car outside. drove home."
"i have notifications off but i open the app anyway. constantly."
"every time i lose i think the next one is the one that gets it back"
"i've started dreaming about spreads"
"i used to drink to deal with losing. now it's both."
"when i win i don't feel relief. i feel like i need to bet it again."
"i placed a bet on a tuesday night slovenian basketball game. that was a new low."
"i set a limit. hit the limit. set a new limit."
"i haven't told anyone in my life. not one person."
"my sister keeps asking why i seem stressed. i say it's work."
"i pulled money from my 401k. processing fee and everything. still lost."
"the debt isn't even the worst part. the lying is the worst part."
"sundays used to be my favorite day of the week"
"i'm not who i was two years ago and i know exactly why"
"i have $11 in my checking account. i have four betting apps."
"if i could just get back to even i swear i would stop"
"my hands actually shake when a big game starts"
"it started as like $20 a week. you know how this ends."
"i used to coach my son's little league. quit because i was always distracted."
"i need to stop. i know i need to stop. i keep not stopping."
"i've been the one guy in the friend group who 'always has something going'"
"i'm writing this at 1:47am after losing $340 on a live bet in the fourth quarter"
"i just want to watch the game. i just want to watch the game."
"march madness used to be fun. now it's just four days of panic."
"i promised my wife i'd stop after the super bowl. it's april."
"i have a venmo dedicated to betting. it's labeled 'utilities.'"
"my therapist asked me to journal. i write about point spreads."
"i was up $2,000. i didn't stop. i never stop."
"i bet my kid's birthday money on a thursday night game."
"my best friend is a bookie now. i can't even look at him."
"i've been on three different self-exclusion lists. found workarounds for all of them."
"i told my doctor i drink too much. that's not even the real problem."
"i had $4,000 saved for a vacation with her. it's gone in 11 days."
"every commercial break i check the live odds. every single one."
"my credit score dropped 200 points in a year. i know exactly why."
"i've started betting on games i'm watching with my kids."
"i told myself i'd only bet on games i know. now i'm betting turkish soccer."
"my boss asked why i look exhausted. it's because i was up until 3am hedging."
"i made a fake email to sign up for another sportsbook after i banned myself."
"there's a deposit pending right now that i can't afford. i know that."
"my mom asked if i needed money. i said no. i did."
"i watch game highlights to see if i would have won. i never would have won."
"my anxiety is so bad on sundays now that i can't eat."
"i sold my playoff tickets to fund a parlay. it lost."
"i've been paying minimums on 4 credit cards. three of them are maxed from betting."
"i used to keep score by how much i was up. now i keep score by how much i owe."
"she found the cash advance receipts. i said they were for a surprise for her."
"i haven't bought myself anything in 6 months. all of it goes to this."
"the app sends me push notifications about games and i get this wave of anxiety."
"i drove past the casino on the way home. sat in the parking lot for 20 minutes."
"i know every team's ATS record this season. i don't know my checking balance."
"i've lied to myself so many times that i don't know what the truth is anymore."
"i lost my fantasy league buy-in and then tried to win it back on real games."
"my hands get clammy during the national anthem now."
"i skipped my kid's soccer game because i was watching a bet."
"every monday i check my balance and feel physically sick."
"i took a personal loan and told the bank it was for home improvement."
"i can't go to a sports bar anymore without placing something."
"i used my emergency fund. there is no emergency fund anymore."
"i've unfollowed every sports account. i still check the lines manually."
"my girlfriend thinks i'm good with money. i'm $8,000 in the hole."
"i ate ramen for a week to have money for the nfl slate."
"i bet on the draft. the draft. what am i doing."
"i wake up at 5am to catch european soccer lines. i don't even like soccer."
"my wedding ring is in a pawn shop. she doesn't know."
"the worst part isn't losing. it's the hour before the game when you know you shouldn't."
"i have more sportsbook accounts than savings accounts."
"my new year's resolution was to stop. it lasted until the rose bowl."
"i turned down overtime at work because i was too anxious about a bet."
"i calculated it once. i've lost more than my car is worth."
"my roommate caught me betting at 4am. i told him i was checking fantasy."
"i don't even celebrate when i win anymore. i just bet it again."